"Dreams don't have deadlines. Believe in yourself".

So many things have happened recently. I am still not feeling well, which really pisses me off. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Ugh. We found out, the same time as the rest of America, that another company will be trying to buy out my company. If that happens, more than likely, I won't have a job any more. That has caused me to sit down and really focus on what I want to be when I grow up. I wake up every day, thankful I have a job that pays the bills, and allows the extras, and I have a kick ass boss, though he's a pain in the ass too, though he means well.
But I don't feel fulfilled. I've struggled with this for a long time. My friends have careers and love what they do. I push paper and pencils to people who argue with me over a price difference of $0.05. I struggled at my bank as well, but I left to come to my current position. I thought more money would cover up that feeling. It masked it for a while. But it's back and yelling at me. So with Hubby's support, I've decided to go back to school in August. Regardless if my position is still here or not. It's time I put my big girl panties on and finish school. I've got 70+ hours under my belt. No degree. I want to go to Nursing School. I want to feel like I am making a difference. I want to help people. I WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
Also, how can I stress the importance of school to my children if I didn't finish. I want people to be proud of me, but most of all, I want to be proud of myself. I want to finish something. Another benefit is I love school. I love to learn. I love knowing things. I think that is what separates us from the amoebas. I'm full of random useless trivia. And I love it. I love being smart and knowing ALL THE THINGS!!! And I am smart enough to know I hardly know anything in this world. I want to learn it all. I think that's partly what life is about. Constantly learning. As I am teaching my daughters and learned from the Duggars, "Practice makes Progress". Thanks Duggars!
I know there are lots of things to worry about. Like paying bills. I will need a new laptop, mine is fried, (though I love Laptoppy). Doing this with 2 kids. Getting good grades. But I have to do it. I have to finish. For my sake.
As the great LL Cool J said, "Dreams don't have deadlines. Believe in yourself". I HEAR YOU LL! Loud and Clear!