Too to apologize

I feel like all I am doing is apologizing lately. To everyone. I don't have enough time in the day. I don't give 100% to anyone. My 1 class is taking up a lot of time. I keep telling myself it will be over soon. I've only got a few more weeks. And then working full time. The K9 Memorial Fund stuff. The kiddos. I am trying really hard to be more patient with them. I hate myself after I yell at them. I don't understand why they don't understand I am at my limit lol. They are growing up so fast, and so beautiful. God they are so beautiful, inside and out. Abbey is coming into her own personality. She's so hard headed and learning all the things, and every day she says a new word and I am like where did this come from?? Harper is such a heart breakingly good sweet loveably girl and I am missing out on this and with me being so tired and impatient, I am too mean to her. Too mean. And with the ugly voice. While talking about it here, is cathartic, it doesn't fix the situation. Only love and patience will. She is talking to her dolls the same way I talk to her and that's unacceptable.

It's been a while.

I know it's been a while. So much going on. School is taking up a lot of my time. Family is taking up a lot of my time. Work is taking too much of my time. Hubby was out of town for a conference, and the kids were at Grandma's. I worked a booth for our K9 Memorial Fund at a BBQ and now I am sick from the BBQ smoke. I also had to coach TBall with Abbey attached to my hip. She refused to let me put her down and so now my back hurts from bending down and picking up balls while holding her. But she wanted to play ball so bad, it was so cute. And I am PMSing so I was in a bad mood all day yesterday. I am achy and I need more sleep.

Watched a video of the Brawl in Arizona. That was insane. It was only funny because the officer were okay. But that was ridiculous. And a Christian band and family at that. I am so digusted.