Too to apologize

I feel like all I am doing is apologizing lately. To everyone. I don't have enough time in the day. I don't give 100% to anyone. My 1 class is taking up a lot of time. I keep telling myself it will be over soon. I've only got a few more weeks. And then working full time. The K9 Memorial Fund stuff. The kiddos. I am trying really hard to be more patient with them. I hate myself after I yell at them. I don't understand why they don't understand I am at my limit lol. They are growing up so fast, and so beautiful. God they are so beautiful, inside and out. Abbey is coming into her own personality. She's so hard headed and learning all the things, and every day she says a new word and I am like where did this come from?? Harper is such a heart breakingly good sweet loveably girl and I am missing out on this and with me being so tired and impatient, I am too mean to her. Too mean. And with the ugly voice. While talking about it here, is cathartic, it doesn't fix the situation. Only love and patience will. She is talking to her dolls the same way I talk to her and that's unacceptable.