You'd think I'd have more time

You would think with class being over for the summer I would have more time. But I don't. Life is getting so busy. I got an A in my class. I am so proud of myself. I passed the assessment test with 40/50. I signed up for a Fall night class. Resigned myself to working in the Fall to help financially. But determined that Spring I would have to quit my job since Hubby will be on nights. Abbey had to have tubes put in both ears. Poor thing. Her hearing was fuzzy and her balance off. She handled it like a trooper, of course. She was in and out within 15 mins. It's amazing how fast it goes now. I wish we hadn't waited so long. I am hoping she starts enunciating better now. My parents are coming up for Father's Day weekend. Express baseball tomorrow night!! We love baseball so much and I think it's a great family memory to have.

It's been a while.

I know it's been a while. So much going on. School is taking up a lot of my time. Family is taking up a lot of my time. Work is taking too much of my time. Hubby was out of town for a conference, and the kids were at Grandma's. I worked a booth for our K9 Memorial Fund at a BBQ and now I am sick from the BBQ smoke. I also had to coach TBall with Abbey attached to my hip. She refused to let me put her down and so now my back hurts from bending down and picking up balls while holding her. But she wanted to play ball so bad, it was so cute. And I am PMSing so I was in a bad mood all day yesterday. I am achy and I need more sleep.

Watched a video of the Brawl in Arizona. That was insane. It was only funny because the officer were okay. But that was ridiculous. And a Christian band and family at that. I am so digusted.

Life too fast

We went to a carnival last night, and both girls rode a pony, and then Harper rode a camel. The girl who ran screaming from Spike 2 years ago, is now riding ponies and camels. I am thrilled by this, but it makes me realize how fast this goes by. So many things happen so fast. I feel like I am grabbing at memories, and they are flying by me. I signed up Abbey for dance starting in July. I don't know if she's ready for it, but we will find out. I don't want to not try.
 I am also working full time, and taking 1 class online. I am so proud of myself for taking this class and I pray I can continue with the same dedication I have now. It's going to be hard, financially, mentally, all that "ly" stuff, but I HAVE to finish this. I have to see through with school. I need to finish something in my life. If I can't get a degree, why should my children. I want to inspire them. I need to hug them more. That was my random thought when thinking about them.
Harper starts Kindergarten in the Fall and there are so many things happening leading up to that. I am finding it hard to let go. She's going to have to make decisions on her own and go off training we have given so far. She's such a sweet kind trusting person, and that is so good, it can harm her too. I think this is something every parent must feel and go through as you go through transitions. But I am just taking it to heart.

Didn't mean to take so long

Whoops, Didn't mean to go so long without posting. Not much has been going on. Signed up for an online class to help me prepare for the test in June. I have to take a test to even register for Anatomy. I was going to try and do it on my own, but I'd feel more prepared if I took this class. And one happens to be starting March 23. Good timing.
We go next Monday to register Harper for Kindergarten. Already. I can't believe my baby is going to be 5. I am petrified of sending her to a big school where I have no control over what happens to her. I am worried that she will be scared or lost. What if someone takes her? What if she's unhappy? What about all the What ifs?? I guess this is part of letting them grow up. We've talked to her about stranger danger, and will keep reiterating it all the time.
I did a mockup of my school schedule. I wish I could register right now. I am so excited. I just want to get started. I wish we could afford for me to start in the summer, but we just can't. We are starting to pay off more bills. Trying to eat more at home. Less luxuries. Going to buckle down.
I say less luxuries, but here I am planning 2 trips. One for the girls' birthdays. It will be a dual trip down to the beach. And then in late July, going to San Francisco with my stepmom and Sissy. I am so excited. I have never been. I am starting to save up now, so hopefully it won't hurt too much in the pocketbooks while we are there. We are going to go to Alcatraz and do some winery tours. It'll be a quick weekend trip.
Not much to report right now. I am going to try and be better about this.
Hubby has had stuff going on at work that is making the papers. I feel for him and his shift, but the guy did it to himself. I have little to no patience which is surprising.This guy lost his career and his way of life, owed to stupid choices he made. Ugh.

Kidless Weekend

It's Valentine's Weekend and the girls are going to their grandparents!! The thing I am most excited about? Sleep. And lack of responsibilty. Like for serious. I am a mom, so my brain is never turned off. It's exhausting. And I will worry about them at my parents. Because that's what moms do. I will probably even have an anxiety attack about them being gone. But is the panic enough that they would stay at home with us? That's a negative Ghost Rider. I value my sleep and sanity too much. In theory, we are meeting up with friends tonight after we drop the girls off.
Then, I am going to do some light shopping tomorrow morning. Bras are needed, and other than the sleep, it's one of the top highlights of my weekend. Hubby forgot to make reservations anywhere, so we are going to my favorite special place, Gumbos North, around 4 to try and get a seat. After that, I am getting tattoos!! I am so freaking excited. I am getting "Matthew 5:9" and Abbey's feetprint on my foot. I have Harper's on there, and I need to do Abbey's. It's only fair. I already have 3. Tribal trampstamp, from when I was 16. Harper's feet, and the Irish Trinity on my wrist. Once you get some, they become addicting.
I will probably read some of my pre test info. I need to get an Anatomy book. It;s time to get started, so I am not overwhelmed towards the end.
I hope everyone has a great Valentine's Day Weekend. Remember to love all year round.

First Baby Steps

I went today to talk to an advisor at school. It was very informative, and though I am thoroughly terrified, I know more things. I know what classes I will need to take to start off, and I am so close to applying to nursing school. I only have a few classes left to apply, but since I need financial aid, and my classes have to be taken in order, then I have to take 3 semesters to finish. But I will be able to get all my prereqs out of the way, and even some of my classes for my BSN done. I printed out my test assesment prep, put it into binders, and will start my reading when I get home. I have 2 schools I can apply to that are in my area. I need to get my GPA up a little bit to help me. There's a wait list?! That's crazy. How does that work? Don't these young kids know I have a family to feed? But that's just more motivation to work harder, and get better grades. I am so excited. I love to learn. I am curious to see what I've retained too. Good thing you can prep for the test. No more Game of Thrones, 50 Shades, or other light reading. It's all mitosis and organisms from here.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

"Dreams don't have deadlines. Believe in yourself".

So many things have happened recently. I am still not feeling well, which really pisses me off. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Ugh. We found out, the same time as the rest of America, that another company will be trying to buy out my company. If that happens, more than likely, I won't have a job any more. That has caused me to sit down and really focus on what I want to be when I grow up. I wake up every day, thankful I have a job that pays the bills, and allows the extras, and I have a kick ass boss, though he's a pain in the ass too, though he means well.
But I don't feel fulfilled. I've struggled with this for a long time. My friends have careers and love what they do. I push paper and pencils to people who argue with me over a price difference of $0.05. I struggled at my bank as well, but I left to come to my current position. I thought more money would cover up that feeling. It masked it for a while. But it's back and yelling at me. So with Hubby's support, I've decided to go back to school in August. Regardless if my position is still here or not. It's time I put my big girl panties on and finish school. I've got 70+ hours under my belt. No degree. I want to go to Nursing School. I want to feel like I am making a difference. I want to help people. I WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
Also, how can I stress the importance of school to my children if I didn't finish. I want people to be proud of me, but most of all, I want to be proud of myself. I want to finish something. Another benefit is I love school. I love to learn. I love knowing things. I think that is what separates us from the amoebas. I'm full of random useless trivia. And I love it. I love being smart and knowing ALL THE THINGS!!! And I am smart enough to know I hardly know anything in this world. I want to learn it all. I think that's partly what life is about. Constantly learning. As I am teaching my daughters and learned from the Duggars, "Practice makes Progress". Thanks Duggars!
I know there are lots of things to worry about. Like paying bills. I will need a new laptop, mine is fried, (though I love Laptoppy). Doing this with 2 kids. Getting good grades. But I have to do it. I have to finish. For my sake.
As the great LL Cool J said, "Dreams don't have deadlines. Believe in yourself". I HEAR YOU LL! Loud and Clear!